4th Year Supervision

At this point of time, I'm stressed and worried again.

This time, I'm worried about not getting a good supervisor who genuinely cares for the students and who is willing to share his or her knowledge unconditionally. Or it could be worse, I might not get a supervisor at all... OMG OMG OMG...

Ok, I am exaggerating things. I have emailed a few of them which I am interested in, hoping hard I did not make a fool of myself by asking a few questions. A few replied, a few did not (I assume they are on leave not are not just plainly ignoring my email).

One told me she group was full
(sad case cause I liked her area of research the most);

One told me she wanted to decide by this week
(I think I screwed this big time, worse thing is I did not realise I screwed up until like today! and it's like Thursday!!! praying like a mad women she has not strike me out and no decision has been made.)


One told me we could meet up once I am back in melb and asked me of my thoughts about the area of research.
(I think I failed to answer her question, arghhh.. Shannon how could you???? Once again, I only realise it today after reading through my email again and again. The thing is, I did also read it again and again before sending it out. sigh... and you know what? She has not got back to me since I replied... I smell the stink of rejection coming. sigh... )


One told me she would out me on the list of students interested and meet me end of February.
(What I dont quite get is.. so does it mean I'm in? or does it mean I am just listed as a potential student she may take under her wing? At this point in time, I am assuming the latter. So this one is good news right? Like there is still hope in this... *fingers crossed*.. I better learn from my mistakes)


As for those who have yet to reply.... I really have no idea what to do now. Do I email them a follow up message of do I just take their silence as rejection. sighh...


Lord, I am seriously worried like a mad girl now.. All i think about at the moment is please let them reply me.... and like me... I hope I sounded professional enough... Should I email a few more supervisors? Please, tell me what I should do now. 4th year has not officially started and I'm already stressed. This shows how much I need you.

Take my life and let it be Lord. I find it hard to NOT to worry but I shall try. May I not lose Your reflection on me.

The Dog who knows how to bark softer

This dog is soooooo cute!

If only Andrew or Emma could do this...

It would be absolute bliss back home, I tell you...

=)

Decision Made

If you've been reading.. You would know that I've been applying for 4th year Psychology course offered by various universities. After months of waiting.. I've finally decided on Deakin.

Reason I picked Deakin over Monash?
1) Monash's course was a freaking 5k more expensive than Deakin!
2) I thought a change of environment would be good.
3) I had 3 friends who all did their 4th year in Deakin (like me graduated from Monash) saying that they never regretted going for Deakin.
4) not really related to this.. but I got rejected by Swinburne.. like what the? oh well.. It is God's will.

I prayed that if i was heading towards the wrong direction that God would shut the door. True enough... He did. So I just wanna thank You Lord!

So that's all for my update for now... 

Here's are random pictures I took today for the fun of it (was caught in the jam)!

Thanks MUM for my Ray Ban!!!
Love them!

Thanks Mei Yen, Ren and Aunty Su Yin for my nail poilish!!

I think I'm totally rocking the nail polish colour! =p

H.U.G.E. 2011

I can still remember vividly of the first ever HUGE camp I attended back in 2001. It was the first year the camp was conducted. I remember how Pastor Julie Khoo shared her story of how she was abused; I remember the visions I had at that camp; I remember what I wrote down in the list of criteria I wanted my future husband to meet; I remember giving away my favourite B.U.M. watch at that time cause I thought that was what God wanted me to do.. LOL.. Until now I still have no idea if that was what really God wanted me to do. But I sure remember how much i struggled before giving that watch away. I was 13!!! and a B.U.M. watch at that time was precious to me.. yet i felt I had to part with it. Maybe God was testing me.. LOL.


Anyway, 10 years passed. I never would have thought this day would come- the day I received a call to be part of the Y.A. band. For a moment after I hung the phone, I thought I had heard wrongly and maybe I was just asked to be a part of the R.C. worship team. My doubts were clarified when I received another call from another person from another church. It was then that I realised I was really asked to be a part of the Y.A. band for the 10th anniversary HUGE camp.


I have no idea how to express my joy.. and how honoured and privileged to be apart of the band. I never thought I would be part of the team as there are so so so so so many other more talented vocalist out there. Why me? Nonetheless, I still wanna thank God for this opportunity to be able to serve Him in such a manner. I am truly unworthy but yet He still gave...

Thank You Lord.

May Your Name and Yours alone be glorified.

Privacy issues

How much is too much of personal info?

Something I've been thinking.... People read my blog to get to know me better but some other use it to find the opportunity to find fault in thing I do or say; some n I hope none use to stalk me of my whereabouts.. N the latter is what I fear the most.. My personal safety.


I hardly blog much about personal thoughts anymore cause I've come to a stage where I feel there is no need to. (but then why am I even blogging now?.. Lol) Anyways, I've been busy living life that I hardly feel the need to blog to kill time like I used to.. =p


Why am I blogging now? Cause some one has been complaining that my blog n our blog is dead... Lol.


I'll still blog once in a while... Thanks to those who have been regularly Checking my blog for updates... Thanks to those who are following my blog with their blogger accounts to which I have no idea who most of them are. thanks to those who actually bothered commenting on some of my posts..

To be honest, I actually do find great joy when people I do not know genuinely comments (not advertising).. I feel like I'm reaching to a much wider audience than what I initially expected. So thanks! Thanks for reading my rants.... =)

Relationship 101

Don't say never, always, all the time, every time...

Cause when you do... You're lying... And when you use it to accuse someone, you are discrediting the efforts the other person has put it.. And I Can tell you this.. It hurts.

4th Year Applications

I am starting to not like university applications... cause they are tiring! I've been busy applying for courses one after another.. and some take way longer than other.Some require you to send in hard copies while others make life more convenient for me by accepting soft copies. I have been experiencing backaches due to me sitting in front of my laptop for long hours.

Sitting in front of my laptop for 5 to 6 hours a day just browsing through university websites for course information. Checking if I meet their entry requirement; double checking if I have missed out any important documents. My eyes are about to dry out and pop out... but thank God I have small eyes (my eye balls are too big to fall through my eye lids and socket.. HAHA). 

I have cleared all online applications so far and need to get some documents certified before I can say I am completely done with applications. After applying for all unis in melb. I shall try applying for some universities in Sydney and also Auckland University (I promised I would at least try).

I am having mixed feeling. Sorta worried and nervous about not knowing what to expect. I just pray that if it is God's will for me to continue in the path I have chosen then He is provide the means for me to do so, be it financially or merely open doors. 

Lord, I hand my applications into Your sovereign hand. May your favour be upon my applications. I pray that I'll be able to continue with my honours year in a reputable university where I would not only be able to learn and grow academically but also be able to truly enjoy what I am studying and meet God fearing supervisors whom I can get along with well.

Thank You Lord for bringing me this far... I am truly grateful and shall try and stop worrying and just trust in You. =)