At this point of time, I'm stressed and worried again.
This time, I'm worried about not getting a good supervisor who genuinely cares for the students and who is willing to share his or her knowledge unconditionally. Or it could be worse, I might not get a supervisor at all... OMG OMG OMG...
Ok, I am exaggerating things. I have emailed a few of them which I am interested in, hoping hard I did not make a fool of myself by asking a few questions. A few replied, a few did not (I assume they are on leave not are not just plainly ignoring my email).
One told me she group was full
(sad case cause I liked her area of research the most);
One told me she wanted to decide by this week
(I think I screwed this big time, worse thing is I did not realise I screwed up until like today! and it's like Thursday!!! praying like a mad women she has not strike me out and no decision has been made.)
One told me we could meet up once I am back in melb and asked me of my thoughts about the area of research.
(I think I failed to answer her question, arghhh.. Shannon how could you???? Once again, I only realise it today after reading through my email again and again. The thing is, I did also read it again and again before sending it out. sigh... and you know what? She has not got back to me since I replied... I smell the stink of rejection coming. sigh... )
One told me she would out me on the list of students interested and meet me end of February.
(What I dont quite get is.. so does it mean I'm in? or does it mean I am just listed as a potential student she may take under her wing? At this point in time, I am assuming the latter. So this one is good news right? Like there is still hope in this... *fingers crossed*.. I better learn from my mistakes)
As for those who have yet to reply.... I really have no idea what to do now. Do I email them a follow up message of do I just take their silence as rejection. sighh...
Lord, I am seriously worried like a mad girl now.. All i think about at the moment is please let them reply me.... and like me... I hope I sounded professional enough... Should I email a few more supervisors? Please, tell me what I should do now. 4th year has not officially started and I'm already stressed. This shows how much I need you.
Take my life and let it be Lord. I find it hard to NOT to worry but I shall try. May I not lose Your reflection on me.
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